Day 06 — Something you hope you never have to do.
I hope I never have to bury one of my children.
Love&Harmony,
Erin
Friday, July 6, 2012
Thursday, July 5, 2012
30 Days - Day 5
Day 05 — Something you hope to do in your life.
Oh man, I could go on and on with this one. It's bulleted list time [in no particular order]!
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight."
~ Proverbs 3:5-6
Love&Harmony,
Erin
Oh man, I could go on and on with this one. It's bulleted list time [in no particular order]!
- Work as a professional opera singer
- Go to graduate school in a big city -- not in the PNW
- Get married and have children
- Write a novel... or two
- Live and work abroad for a while
- Fall in love
- Be the voice of an animated character
- Be a voice teacher
- Get my doctorate and teach at the university level
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight."
~ Proverbs 3:5-6
Love&Harmony,
Erin
Wednesday, July 4, 2012
30 Days - Day 4
Day 04 — Something you have to forgive someone for.
Whoops - a little late on the ball with this post today. At least it's still the 4th!
I thought I would have an immediate answer for this post, in terms of having someone I haven't truly forgiven for something. But after reflecting on even the strongest hurts I've recieved from people throughout my life, I don't feel some sort of gaping hole in my heart where I have yet to forgive them.
My problem lies in the "forgetting" part of the whole thing. I don't hold grudges in the sense that I will hate someone for the rest of my life -- I can forgive them and move past the issue with time. However, I will probably always remember what they did, which leads to a whole trust issue.
I've heard it argued that you haven't really forgiven someone until you forget as well. I don't mean to hold onto those negative memories in order to have something bitter to recall, though. I think I use them more for myself, as a way to remember how I felt when someone treated me a certain way and to help me not become a bad guy in similar situations. Does that make any sense?
Love&Harmony,
Erin
Whoops - a little late on the ball with this post today. At least it's still the 4th!
I thought I would have an immediate answer for this post, in terms of having someone I haven't truly forgiven for something. But after reflecting on even the strongest hurts I've recieved from people throughout my life, I don't feel some sort of gaping hole in my heart where I have yet to forgive them.
My problem lies in the "forgetting" part of the whole thing. I don't hold grudges in the sense that I will hate someone for the rest of my life -- I can forgive them and move past the issue with time. However, I will probably always remember what they did, which leads to a whole trust issue.
I've heard it argued that you haven't really forgiven someone until you forget as well. I don't mean to hold onto those negative memories in order to have something bitter to recall, though. I think I use them more for myself, as a way to remember how I felt when someone treated me a certain way and to help me not become a bad guy in similar situations. Does that make any sense?
Love&Harmony,
Erin
Tuesday, July 3, 2012
30 Days - Day 3
Day 03 — Something you have to forgive yourself for.
I'm going to have to go back to childhood for this. In my time, I was occasionally awfully mean. I don't remember why exactly. The grown-up in me now would probably label it as a reaction to insecurity, I suppose. (Look at me, using my camp counselor knowledge! hah.) This is something that could be said of children in general, especially girls... but I digress.
I specifically remember being quite snarky to a friend of mine which led to a whole incident with another not-friend of mine. The girl who was my friend and I finally reached each other by the next recess, both cried together, said sorry and made up. Many birthday sleepovers and whatnot were enjoyed between us until age (she was a year younger) and time made us drift apart.
But the incident with the not-friend became one on a long list that caused me agony up through sixth or maybe seventh grade. Part of me wishes we could have just had it out with fists and moved on, but girl fights are never like that. They're long, toxic, and seething until you (hopefully) realize how pointless it is. I know we were both in the wrong at points and that's probably what makes it hard for me to forgive myself for it. I spent hours throughout my K-12 years fretting over what I had done and what I could do to fix the problem between us. I still think about it sometimes, but I have come to terms with the fact that some things are not fixable. In spite of that, I still can't forgive myself for whatever it is I might have done to make her dislike me so much all those years ago. Maybe if I knew what it was? But I won't ever end up asking, seeing as we don't speak and haven't for years.
Giving up? Or gaining life perspective?
Love&Harmony,
Erin
I'm going to have to go back to childhood for this. In my time, I was occasionally awfully mean. I don't remember why exactly. The grown-up in me now would probably label it as a reaction to insecurity, I suppose. (Look at me, using my camp counselor knowledge! hah.) This is something that could be said of children in general, especially girls... but I digress.
I specifically remember being quite snarky to a friend of mine which led to a whole incident with another not-friend of mine. The girl who was my friend and I finally reached each other by the next recess, both cried together, said sorry and made up. Many birthday sleepovers and whatnot were enjoyed between us until age (she was a year younger) and time made us drift apart.
But the incident with the not-friend became one on a long list that caused me agony up through sixth or maybe seventh grade. Part of me wishes we could have just had it out with fists and moved on, but girl fights are never like that. They're long, toxic, and seething until you (hopefully) realize how pointless it is. I know we were both in the wrong at points and that's probably what makes it hard for me to forgive myself for it. I spent hours throughout my K-12 years fretting over what I had done and what I could do to fix the problem between us. I still think about it sometimes, but I have come to terms with the fact that some things are not fixable. In spite of that, I still can't forgive myself for whatever it is I might have done to make her dislike me so much all those years ago. Maybe if I knew what it was? But I won't ever end up asking, seeing as we don't speak and haven't for years.
Giving up? Or gaining life perspective?
Love&Harmony,
Erin
Monday, July 2, 2012
30 Days - Day 2
Day 02 — Something you love about yourself.
I love my smile. I love my smarts. I love my hair. I love my imagination. I love my empathy. I love my wit. I love my terrible puns. I love my laughter. I love my calves. I love my waistline. I love my curiosity. I love my desire to learn. I love how much I care about people, even when it ends up hurting. I love my fingernails now that I've learned to let them grow. I love my strength. I love my spirit.
Love&Harmony,
Erin
I love my smile. I love my smarts. I love my hair. I love my imagination. I love my empathy. I love my wit. I love my terrible puns. I love my laughter. I love my calves. I love my waistline. I love my curiosity. I love my desire to learn. I love how much I care about people, even when it ends up hurting. I love my fingernails now that I've learned to let them grow. I love my strength. I love my spirit.
Love&Harmony,
Erin
Sunday, July 1, 2012
30 Days - Day 1
Day 1 - Something you hate about yourself.
Ouch, harsh way to start this whole thing off.
If I was writing this several years ago, there would probably be plenty of things for me to list off about myself, especially about my body. My self confidence in my teen years was [inwardly] shaky at best, as with most people, I'm sure. Luckily, time, friends, faith, and love have helped change that. I still struggle sometimes, but there is honestly nothing I hate about myself, physically or otherwise.
I admit that there are things I still dislike -- for example, I wish I could be less conscious of my shape sometimes, which is certainly on the chubby side of curvy. On the emotional side, I have a tendency to overthink the meaning behind the words/actions of others (I think a lot of us do this, though) which causes me more anxiety than anything else... lessons in learning to let things go and move on.
But, overall, there isn't anything I can say I hate about myself. My years in high school and college have taught me to accept who I am, learn from myself and my successes/mistakes, and grow into someone better in the days and years to come. I certainly have a long way to go and life to experience, but I'm lucky in that regard!
Love&Harmony,
Erin
Ouch, harsh way to start this whole thing off.
If I was writing this several years ago, there would probably be plenty of things for me to list off about myself, especially about my body. My self confidence in my teen years was [inwardly] shaky at best, as with most people, I'm sure. Luckily, time, friends, faith, and love have helped change that. I still struggle sometimes, but there is honestly nothing I hate about myself, physically or otherwise.
I admit that there are things I still dislike -- for example, I wish I could be less conscious of my shape sometimes, which is certainly on the chubby side of curvy. On the emotional side, I have a tendency to overthink the meaning behind the words/actions of others (I think a lot of us do this, though) which causes me more anxiety than anything else... lessons in learning to let things go and move on.
But, overall, there isn't anything I can say I hate about myself. My years in high school and college have taught me to accept who I am, learn from myself and my successes/mistakes, and grow into someone better in the days and years to come. I certainly have a long way to go and life to experience, but I'm lucky in that regard!
Love&Harmony,
Erin
30 Day Challenge
I got this challenge via my cousin Leanne's blog, which she completed over the month of May. I admired her courage and determination to get through all of the "30 Days of Truth," some of which have pretty touchy subjects.
I decided to give it a shot too! I was going to do it in June, but with 8 days of Girl Scout Camp at the end of the month (as a counselor, guys... not a camper...) I figured July would be a better choice for consistency's sake.
So... here goes nothing - 30 Days of Truth.
Day 01 — Something you hate about yourself.
Day 02 — Something you love about yourself.
Day 03 — Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04 — Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 05 — Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06 — Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07 — Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 — Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like dirt.
Day 09 — Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 — Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 — Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 — Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 — A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14 — A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15 — Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 — Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 — A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 — Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 — What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 — Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 — (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 — Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 — Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 — Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 — The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 — Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 — What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 28 —What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 29 — Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 — A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself.
Love&Harmony,
Erin
I decided to give it a shot too! I was going to do it in June, but with 8 days of Girl Scout Camp at the end of the month (as a counselor, guys... not a camper...) I figured July would be a better choice for consistency's sake.
So... here goes nothing - 30 Days of Truth.
Day 01 — Something you hate about yourself.
Day 02 — Something you love about yourself.
Day 03 — Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04 — Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 05 — Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06 — Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07 — Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 — Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like dirt.
Day 09 — Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 — Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 — Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 — Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 — A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14 — A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15 — Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 — Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 — A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 — Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 — What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 — Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 — (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 — Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 — Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 — Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 — The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 — Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 — What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 28 —What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 29 — Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 — A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself.
Love&Harmony,
Erin
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