Day 29 — Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
I really hope that I will find the ability to take control of my diet/exercise habits in a truly healthy way. I use my busy life as an excuse, which I shouldn't... but it is somewhat valid. Between all of the things I feel I need to do to not let others or myself down, I tend to push thinking about my health aside. Not only does it bring up complicated feelings and self-esteem things, but it feels so stressful to even add one more thing to keep track of into my schedule (especially during the school year). I can do better, I know I can. I know, deep down, I do have that ability to change -- to take charge of really taking care of myself. Furthermore, I really should. As a singer, especially in professional shows, my body/voice are my representation of who I am whether that's in an audition or onstage. Taking real care isn't just for me, it ultimately is for my career choice/passion as well.